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가정은 마음이 있는 곳이다

Everyone,

I’ve been thinking a lot about how exactly I should put this, but…I’m coming back home..

These past few months I’ve been trying to adjust to all the changes that I told you about in a previous post, but it’s just been too much. I’m stressed out of my mind trying to keep up with the classes, I don’t understand half of what’s going on in class anymore and I know it will only get worse if I finally manage to go to my University. We’re 8 months in and I still can’t read a children’s book, nor can I hold even a simple conversation without resorting to using English constantly. They’re teaching us nothing but TOPIK at school and what Korean they do teach they explain so poorly that I might as well be studying it by myself.

The only reason for still staying here in spite of all of this was my lovely girlfriend, but since she decided to break up with me to go abroad I don’t see what I’m still doing here.. I might as well follow her to Europe.

It hasn’t been an easy decision, because I hate giving up and I love Korea and its language so much, but this is not the way I imagined this scholarship working out.. All my love for Korean has been sucked out of me by Keimyung, and although my love for Korea will never go away it’s not enough to make me deal with this shit every single day.

I’m looking forward to seeing you all again, my family and friends..and I’ll miss you, all the wonderful people I’ve met here.

Let’s meet again some day.

.

 

*Please note the date on which this article was published! You couldn’t chase me out of Korea even if you wanted to*

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4 comments on “가정은 마음이 있는 곳이다

  1. Nellie
    1 April 2015

    Volg je hart maar ook je verstand. Denk er goed over na. Als je weer in Nederland bent denk je er misschien anders over.Moeilijkheden zijn er om opgelost te worden. Als je binnenkort een paar dagen vrij bent kun je weer energie opdoen en alles even vergeten. (Dan kijk je er misschien anders tegen aan en ga je er weer voor).

    • Anon Of Holland
      2 April 2015

      Lieve moeders,

      hoewel ik tegen een burnout aan zit, krijgt ook die burnout me hier niet weg. Hoe kut het hier ook wordt, ik weet dat dit een once in a lifetime kans is en die ga ik voor niets opgeven. Dus dankjewel voor de lieve woorden en e-mail, maar die waren echt niet nodig voor een 1 April grap :3

  2. Brian
    12 April 2015

    Na je blog gevonden doorgelezen te hebben kwam dit wel tot een schok, gelukkig lees ik vandaag de kleine lettertjes >.<.

    Kan niet wachten tot een nieuwe blogpost. Zit nu in 5vwo en houd alle opties open, jouw ervaringen inspireren mij in ieder geval zeer.

    Brian.

    • Anon Of Holland
      14 April 2015

      Hey Brian,

      altijd fijn om te horen dat m’n verhalen inspireren. Ik heb zelf voordat ik de stap maakte ook veel gehad aan de paar Nederlandse bloggers hier, dus als je iets wil weten schroom je niet om het te vragen.

      Ik ben van plan om binnenkortish in ieder geval ook eens een post te schrijven over dingen die zuigen in Korea zodat men een wat beter beeld kan vormen =p

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